The creators fled to an asylum
For but a hit of happiness
Accordingly, the progeny did build
An elaborate recipe for decadence
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The monarch ordained by blood
Of this weary three-roomed structure
I giggle atop my throne of dirt
Jangling my illusory coin-purse
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Atop my terrace, I sat looking to the West beneath a starless sky. Bare streetlights glared upon barren streets, the CWG complex was dead. I finally hurled my last cigarette off the perimeter, following the red descent with my tired eyes – the party’s over and how! Time to pull myself out of the rut, put up a smile and head out, back into the world of dreadful routines. News from the mountains brings mixed feelings, but as always, everything seems to have worked out; or maybe, I’ve just become good at convincing myself. Whatever!
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How is to one pursue beauty and bliss amidst all the ignorance and chaotic cycles of survival? Give me a golden cage or give me decadent liberty, but don’t keep me trapped in this timid wretchedness!
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Sometimes I feel an omniscience towering over all, and sometimes a wandering fool reveling in the consolation of deluded genius
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In my four years of being a cannabis smoker, this is my first serious attempt at quitting or at least taking a break. More than the pathetic dependence and skewed priorities, what disgruntles me is the inevitable fact that the lifestyle and habit causes me to make unfounded judgments and steers me towards mendacious ways. Besides, I tell myself I’ve gotten all that I could get out of THC and now instead of furthering my purpose, it seems to hamper it instead, and thus, it must be discarded; or at least, I must try.
NOTE: This does not mean my interest in intoxication has been subdued in any way.
“Don’t call me ‘dude’, I’m not a stoner anymore!”
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Another reason why rock pigeons suck: They keep rebuilding their nests at the same spot no matter how many times you demolish the damn thing.
PS: There were no eggs!
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Movies to watch: Killer Klowns from Outer Space, Four Rooms and Being John Malkovich.
How's it working out for you? :)
ReplyDeleteP.S. Guess who's back.
Well, I didn't smoke for a couple of weeks. But then I went to college, but yeah, I still don't score or smoke at home. So I guess I'm a 'social smoker' now.
ReplyDeleteBTW since I'm still trying to figure out YouTube, I ended up deleting your invite. I sent you a request of my own
Oh and you do know that I have somewhat of a grouse against you?
PS: You're not in Bangalore? SF?
I'm not going back for SF, Loons. What to say.. Long Story.
ReplyDeleteAnd a grouse, eh? Would an interesting tale fix it in the slightest? Either way, I have lots to talk to you about..
I'm in Delhi only now. Will probably be going back for repeats. -_- But after that, we should sit down and catch up one day. Properly. Like I said, there's lots I'd like to talk to you about..
Dude, you suck, I'm leaving tomorrow! Tch, I don't know what to say. Somewhat heartbreaking really.
ReplyDeleteBut yeah, we'll try and fix something when I get back in a couple of weeks. Oh yeah, remember, we tried to do so last time as well? Only a certain phone never rang and nor a mail answered. Hmph!
Hah, yeah, that was what it was all about. And no, I don't think I was being petty (and if you beg to differ, don't bother). Hmph again!
PS: Redirect further conversation to gmail